relapsing. (uh-oh!)

11 painful things:
1. bringing back the feeling you've learned to forget.
2. reminiscing the good times.
3. trying to hide what you really feel. -> ouch.
4. loving someone who loves another.
5. having commitment with someone that you know wouldn't last.
6. shielding your heart to love somebody.
7. loving a person too much. -> double ouch.
8. right love at the wrong time.
9. accepting it was never meant to be. -> biggest ouch! fck.
10. learning to love again.
11. what if's.


***

and i'll say it again.


people tell me to get over it. but getting over isn't the point for me. i had something in my life that was beautiful and true. and that isn't something you ever get over with, at least in a snap.*



i won’t be stuck in the past, holding on to our yesterday, waiting for something that won’t ever come back.*


* excerpts from vince's life 1 & 2.